Joy Finally Returns

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"Molly, it is okay to talk about what you're going through." These words came from my mom during a time I thought my world was crashing down. A few days ago I finally accepted the fact that I simply cannot have it all together all the time. I also learned that I have to allow others to help me. I have always tried to be the comforter. I've attempted to be the supplier of infinite hugs and reminders that "the best is yet to come." I also end up doubting God's faithfulness. I begin asking questions like, "Why is this happening to me?" "How long will this last?" "When will I feel like the old me again?" No matter how strong my relationship with God is, I still find myself forgetting to give all of my worries to Him. It's easy to get so wrapped up in how it seems as if everything is falling apart. It's even easier to slip into a dark place of pushing others away. I spent the last 6 weeks wondering why I couldn't escape the things that were bringing me down. I could barely recognize myself. I lost the majority of the joy I had worked so hard to achieve in my life. I didn't appreciate all the wonderful things that surrounded me. No matter how hard I tried, it was just easier to wear a mask and pretend to be happy than to turn to my friends, family, and especially my God.

Finally, my Bible was back in my hands towards the final week of Christmas break. I thought I'd share the verses that picked me up. The ones filled my heart with joy and comfort again as I begin this final semester of my Freshman year of college.

Psalm 94:19

"When anxiety was great within me, Your consolation brought me joy."

Psalm 43:5

"Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet  praise Him, my Savior and my God."

Deuteronomy 31:8

"The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."

Isaiah 41:10

"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous hand."

Psalm 143:8

"Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life."

John 16:33

"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world"

Psalm 34:18

"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit."

Matthew 17:20

He said to them, "Because of your little faith. For truly, I say to you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed you will say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you."

 

6 weeks ago I was desperate for comfort. I was full of doubt and yearned for normalcy. After experiencing these trials I can confidently say I am stronger than I was before. I have a new attitude towards life's struggles, and once again, am reminded of God's incredible promises to me. Just when I thought everything was falling apart, it was actually falling into place.

What I Left Behind in 2016

What I Left Behind in 2016

2016 was the year of learning new things about myself and others. I graduated high school, realized the characteristics of a true friend, began my freshman year of college, and became someone I am really proud to be. This past year was a whirlwind, but I totally conquered it. It doesn't mean 2016 didn't have its moments, because trust me, it did. However, I finally realized that the most important part of growing up is taking advantage of every opportunity to shape yourself into the best "you" that you can be, despite the challenges that are thrown your way. After much reflection, I've created a list of 5 things that I learned to let go of in the upcoming year.

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